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Sorry, I'm a little hung over. I had a nightmare yesterday night, that I went to the UM Hospital with Dad and my sister. We went to the emergency ward and saw Mum, sitting on the wheelchair, dewy-eyed, her eyes red from crying, and my uncle, coming out from the ward, explaining grandpa's condition. Dad went into the ward to see grandpa, who is probably lying on the bed behind the closed curtain. I wanted to see grandpa but just couldn't bring myself to. Mum was telling all the really scary part, how grandpa got a hard attack right after he ate a little bit of cereal and his eyes were rolled up, and how cold he felt when she touched him.....

Anyway, just as I was stepping into the ward, the doctor and the nurses came. So, I didn't get a glimpse of grandpa. Then, grandpa was moved to the CCU ward. That's when I saw grandpa, lying on the bed, looking weak with all those tubes plugged into his whole body.

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OMG...it's not a dream.

Dad just called back from the hospital this morning. I know I should be at the hospital but I don't know what I'm doing here back home, enjoying breakfast here while every minute in the hospital is getting critical. Probably I won't be able to take it there...

Garandpa's condition is getting worse...Dad said, just waiting for his time...

I don't think.....grandpa's gonna ever wake up...

But, I'm just gonna keep praying.... I've got to have a little hope.

Happiness is Best @ (: 12:14 PM

Just got home from guitar lesson. Sigh..I'm still so confused over key signatures, major and minor.
Damn..I just hope that I didn't piss my teacher off. He was really patient with me. = S
I'm suppose to go jogging today to burn that chunk of fats that I probably gain from that Baskin Robbins chocolate ice-cream I had for dessert after lunch, but didn't make it bacause firstly, my Dad had to do buy some stuff for grandpa in hospital after picking me up from guitar lesson and secondly, Dad said that it was going to rain. I was a LITTLE pissed but I promised myself that I will not return to the obssessed self that I used to be, when 2 hours exercise everyday is a MUST and strictly 800~1000 calories a day.
I know, I was on the right track to become aneroxic and my mum had constantly tried to force me to eat and we used to quarrel alot because I refused to eat. But now I know that, you can eat whatever you want as long there's moderation and exercise.
So, I remained cool, took an apple from the fridge, and sit down here, blogging and downloading songs. By the way, Ashley Tisdale's songs are not bad. I am actually downloading her songs right now from Ares. And you guys should also listen to Eminem's songs. I recommend, "Stan" , "Cleanin' out my Closet", and "Mocking Bird"(I'm sure you've heard this one before). I've only heard these few so far but I'm gonna download his songs in Ares later on. His lyrics are REALLY meaningful. Go check it out.

Anyway, I put those songs in my music player here so you guys can hear them while browsing through my blog. : ) I know, I'm suddenly a huge fan of EMINEM.

And, WTH, I got back my Sejarah and Maths marks today, and they suck. 65% for Sejarah and 62% for Maths. Greaatt.....

P.S: To the certain someone, as least you left an offline message. Mum and Dad certainly cheered up : ) Now, they have someone to count on.

Happiness is Best @ (: 6:59 PM

Happiness is Best @ (: 9:22 AM

Ryo and Yamapi. Aww..aren't just ADORABLE? Kawaii ne~

Ueto Aya.

The matured and much hot-looking Ryo.

OMG..I'm totally obssessing over Nishikido Ryo right now, after watching 5 episodes of Attention Please, which my friend, Jane, kindly lent me. I began obssessing about Nishikido-kun when I watched Ichi Rittoru no Namida, which is a REALLY SAD DRAMA about a girl suffering from a disease and died in the end. Sob...I cried when I watched it. It's really a tear-jerking drama, okay. I bet you'll cry too when you watch it, unless you're heartless. Anyway, back to Attention Please. Ahem. The drama's really awesome. AND totally different from Ichi Rittoru no Namida. It's funny, which made me lmao at certain part. But then again, I love anything Japanese : ) Plus the main actress, Ueto Aya is a total hottie and of course, Nishikido Ryo

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OMG. I just found a really SHOCKING news from http://www.kpopmusic.co.uk/ Sorry for the dramatic entry for this post today but this is a totally shocking news and not only will it be to me, but to all DBSK fans, check this out:

4 August 2009 - Is TVXQ Headed for Breakup?

Three members of Korea? hottest pop group TVXQ ?Micky Yu-chun, Xiah Jun-su, and Hero Jae-joong ?filed a legal action against its agency, SM Entertainment. The law firm representing the three members said that they signed 13-year exclusive contracts with SM Entertainment, which is essentiall! y binding lifelong contracts. They also claimed that the profit distribution enforced on them by SM Entertainment is unfair.

The press release issued by the lawyers said that the group was subject to grueling schedule since their debut in 2004, shuttling between Japan, China and Korea with very little rest. They can? get out of this predicament, because they essentially belong to SM Entertainment for 13 years, 15 years if military services are included. The members were also given only 0.4 to 1% of total album sales. Before the contract revision in February, they were promised only 10 million won each if the previous album sold more than 500 thousand copies

The fans of TVXQ have been in a state of panic ever since the news of a possible breakup made the headlines. Despite the provisional disposition to terminate the contracts, however, the remaining two members ?U-Know Yun-ho and Max Chang-min ?and the agency both said that the band would continue performing and it would not disband.

Credits KBS.

Someone tell me this is so not gonna happen.

Happiness is Best @ (: 10:12 PM

Happiness is Best @ (: 7:07 PM

Happiness is Best @ (: 6:07 PM

Today, something really weird and creepy happened to me.
When I was waiting for dad to pick me up from USJ 6 (opposite USJ 2), this Malay guy, short (Shorter than me), pot-bellied, and was sweating walking from who the hell knows where, approached me. This was what he asked me:

Guy: Which school are you from?
Me: (hesitating) SMK Seafield..*puts on a fake smile* just opposite....
Guy: What form are you?
Me:......form 3....
Guy:You, a prefect?
Me: No..librarian..
Guy:Oh, I thought you're a prefect.
(a few girls approaching)
Guy:You wear a pinafore?
Me: ?? err....
Guy:Last time you wear pinafore?
Me: Oh..yeah..
Guy: (group of girls approaching) Those girls wearing pinafore, very pretty(pointing to one of the girl in pinafore)
Me:Uh huh...
Guy: But when want to go to toilet, very difficult take off. But yours okaylah.
Me: (getting uneasy)
Guy: Got some(girls) didn't zip. The pinafore got one or two zips at the side?
Me:*getting more uneasy* Err....One??? (pervert!)
Guy: Oh, you got see some of them didn't zip, can see, very sexy, espiecially CHINESE girls.
Me*thinking* "OMG...don't tell me his trying to tell me I didn't zip up MY zip?!?!"
Guy:You didn't see?
Me: (Getting desperate and totally disturbed) No...
*praying* "OMG...papa, hurry up!! Come and get me quick!!"
Guy:Sorry, I talked to you about it
Me:(in a whatever manner) Yea...
Guy:(beginning to leave as a whole group of students approached)


Damn creepy right? At first, I thought he wanted to tell me that my skirt was unzipped but then think otherwise, because firstly, my skirt was zipped and secondly, MY friends would have told me long ago if my zip was unzipped. What the hell. Thank god, those students came and save me. I mean, he can be a rapist or something, right? I saw Maverick, walking with Xing Jun, and I saw Syazza too. I felt a little calm then, when I see them. After that, I saw the guy at the other side of the road, talking on the phone. I frozed, and started hyperventilating again. "What if the guy's calling his friend to come kidnap me or something??"
I know I was being paranoid but how can I not after what he just said to me? It just sounded wrong, creepy, retarded....the way he said it like he's suggesting that my skirt can easily be taken off so that...eaww...I don't wanna get into detail.

When I told mum, she started yelling at me for talking to strangers. She said that the freak could chant me and then take me somewhere..maybe out of the country... OMG.............

Happiness is Best @ (: 2:30 PM

Okay, so I'm gonna be happy today.

Anyway, I wanna thank everyone; Sher Mun, Anushiya, John Ho, Melisa, Janisa, Priya, Magdalene, Emily, Xian Ting, Vicky, Su Jean, Jeanne, Wen Li, Marianne, Daashini, Reena... for remembering my birthday today. I am grateful to have wonderful friends, eventhough I'm not close with some of you xD

And, I would like to wish Sharmaine, who shares the same birthday as me a Happy Birthday:D

And sorry, Marianne for not receiving your text message. You're the earliest to wish me, I think.

And to Magdalene, I still can't make up my mind what I really want as my birthday gift. Probably my mind is still so clogged up from memorizing Science xD.

And to my dearest daddy, thanks for the early birthday present. Love you : D

Lady Gaga album ^ ^

Happiness is Best @ (: 2:26 PM

It is way worse than I thought. Mum said she couldn't even sleep last night. She looked awful. I feel really sorry for her. Well, now, it's all up to me to put the load of dirty clothes in the washing machine, hang the clothes out at the balcony for drying, fix her breakfast, buy my own food and for my sister, walk to school and take my sister to school....lots of things to do and yet, so little time.

Why did this all have to happen when it is just ONE more day to trials????

Why??
Whyy??
WHY???

Only god knows why.

By the way, we can't make it at all for blessing today.

P.S: Mum, I'll be praying for your well-being

Happiness is Best @ (: 8:38 AM

Happiness is Best @ (: 12:07 AM

Lots of things happened today. Firstly, at 8.30am, me and my family went for a photoshoot session at Grace Knot in Taipan. The staff there make us up and then we took LOTS of pictures till I was too tired of posing. We keep running out of poses, espiecially when that time we all had to pose candid. I felt sorry for the photographer, wrecking his head for ideas for US. My bro's picture came out the best. He's got almost all his poses right. For me, I think I looked weird, eventhough I had make up on and I'm suppose to look fabulous and all but seriously, it didn't work for me. LOL. Something's really wrong with me.

Then, we had lunch at the coffeeshop nearby and then headed to Sunway to shop for my bro's stuff. By the way, I bought a set of really nice earrings at Diva but it was costly: RM 29. At least it had 6 pairs. Then, I went for my Japanese lesson, then went out for dinner with my relatives and grandparents. I brought my Science and Geo revision book along and TRIED to study. I read a little on Science Chapter 7 but surprise, surprise I got distracted AGAIN.

Okay, so here's the biggest happening of the day. My mum and dad, after dropping me and my sister home, and after fetching my bro to his sleepover party, went to buy some fruits. And guess what happened? I was happily taking quiz on Facebook when dad return home and told me to go down to the car because my mum told me so. I didn't get what was going on, until dad finally made it clear. My mum sprained her right foot. Mum fell into the drain in front of the entrance to the apartment. Dad had to call a friend, who is a chiropratic, (I hope I spelt it right)a person who mend broken bone. He had a shop in Taipan, so, he was on his way home in Cheras when he got the call from dad, and had to go all the way back to the shop. Note: it was already way past ten. Sigh... today's like troubling-people-day. And coincidentally, the lady who made the photograph for us and the photographer from Grace Knot know my parents chiropractic friend. They were there too and we got the first 5 photograph from her.

And another major thing..no a really huge secret that myparents and I found out...nahh..forget it. I will not spill it here. It's too personal. xD

Well, that will wrap it all up on what happened today.

By the way, mum will not be able to follow us for blessing tomorrow...Sighh...

Happiness is Best @ (: 11:41 PM

A post specially to Lady Gaga.
I totally L-O-V-E her.
Love her as a biggest fan of course.
I totally like her hairstyle in the Lovegame MV. So cool. I am thinking of getting the same hairstyle as her and colour it in WHITE. Of course, I have to wait, like , a zillion years for my hair to grow that long but I know it will be worth waiting IF her hairstyle suits me at all. Hope it suits.

Happiness is Best @ (: 6:19 PM

After for a really long time, I've decided to leave a post today. Okay, I'll just list down what's going on in my life currently:

a) I left my Seni project undone. Too much pressure. Anyway it has a little bit more drawing to do before I'm done and that can totally wait until trials are over.
b) I am not studying enough. I don't know why am I feeling so calm about it. "Come on! Wake up, girl!!! WAKE UP!!" That's what I keep telling myself but I keep getting distracted. Somebody, anyone, just slap me. I desperately need a wake up call from the dream world.
c) I spend too much time in the park and lazing around.
d) I keep procrastinating
e)I keep telling myself I'm gonna fail my trials and yet I still do nothing about it.
f) I'm still a boring person
g)I'm still not a socialite
h) I still suck in Maths
i)I keep skipping school, thinking I would study but always end up getting distracted.
j) I'm hopeless.

Anyway, the biggest thing that happened last Sunday was I performed on stage with my brand new guitar, which my Dad bought for me right before the concert in Guitar Collection at Sunway.
I was really nervous that I missed a few chords. Darn..I totally screwed up. Hope no one realized... It was held in The Performing Arts in Kuala Lumpur; Guitar Alive..Is Alive. It is not a prestigious type of performance. It's for all ages including amateurs and free admission. This year was held in a smaller hall. And yet, I still feel thousands of butterflies in my stomach x.x
Luckily, I wasn't performing solo though, but the whole team consisted of really good guitarists. 2 of them are music teachers and the other three, including my bro are much higher grade than me(Except one of them who is at the same grade as me but he's still good though, at least he didn't miss a chord.) Sorry, I totally forgot their names xD. Hahahaa..what great team.

And the biggest thing that's gonna happened next week?
PMR Trial Exam
and
My bro's leaving for Canada on Monday.

Time flies by real quick. I didn't realized how soon it was until Mum, as usual, announced bro's last week with us. Mum's been totally enthustiastic about it ever since my uncle in Canada decided to sponsor my bro after finishing his SPM. So, this week, my Dad took a one week holiday from work to spend time with my bro and go shopping for his things.

How in the world do I get the time to study????

I have to go to Sunway later on to go shop for bro's laptop bag and have dinner there.

AND
I have to go to the airport on Monday and miss my Maths tuition.

OMG...I'm totally stressing out here!!!

Happiness is Best @ (: 5:42 PM